Short story- I wanted to

It was evening when I looked outside, the sky was clear, light breeze was blowing,some children were playing cricket in the park. “You are out” someone screamed at the top of his lungs,must be sudhir ,he always scream like that when he don’t get batting for a long time 

“What are you thinking Mr Daydreamer” Gaurav sir snapped at me in his heavy voice,Suddenly I left the park and came back to my small study room,where i was solving the trigonometric equation , “this is what you call concentration?” He again snarled at me , I was unable to answer, so I decided to let him speak, anyway they all speak, nobody has to listen to me.He was still glaring at me,”Show me your copy” he said and then snatched it from my hands , “Answers of Three Questions are wrong” he said . But seven answers are correct too i thought , but didn’t utter a word !!

Suddenly mom entered the room with cup of tea in her hands , Gaurav sir’s tone magically changed ,he said “satyam you are a bright child i know,but you lack concentration and practice, you are not working hard enough”, mom’s expressions became tightened, i can see the hint of disappointment on her face.

Anyways Gaurav sir left , and  I sat down with my head bowed on my study table and started thinking that in a while Tiwari sir would come to teach physics and till the evening he would go cricket match will be over.

Dinner was served at the dinner table at night , suddenly dad asked how is my preparations for board exams are going ? I knew that the answer to this question will be given by him only, he is just asking me for formality, I said it’s fine

He continued, Gaurav sir was saying you are not studying well, i sneaked at mom ,I know that she told this to him,she didn’t look at me, i didn’t utter a word,i knew its of no use,they have already decided what they wanna say and believe, 
” Do you wanna spoil our family’s name and reputation ?!?” He grunted I didn’t spoke ,he went on “you know the amount i am spending on our studies,your schools, your extra tuitions?” And here u are goofing around” his voice became louder , “tell me if you don’t wanna study at all?” “You wanna become vegetable seller or what ? ” 

I sat there quietly with my head bowed ,absorbing whatever words were thrown at me,after dad got up from the dining table,mom sat beside me and said”just tell me satyam why do you do this son? ,see how hurt he is , why do you do this ?I didn’t said a word again,its of no use !!! 

I suddenly glanced at the calendar, its been 4 months i didn’t go out for playing cricket,its been 4 months i hadn’t been to my friends place to play our favourite video game !! Its been 4 months i didn’t smiled !! And this will continue for another 5 months till my boards exam

Last year my cousin sister scored 94% in her boards exam,from that day, dad and mom became participants in an unknown competition in which i was their horse on which they were betting on ,the stakes were high even the ambitions were but i was left behind ,but who really cares ??

Next day , dad said enough of wasting your time satyam ,from now there’s another maths teacher will teach you after school and then gaurav sir will also teach you maths but different chapter ,like this you can complete your syllabus in half of the time and will have ample time for revision !!! I just felt like screaming ,like scream my lungs out, but i just said “ok” 

And today is the result day, the day for which I just feared the most the site keep collasping again and again ,even the site can’t bear such amount of pressure ,whatever !!! 

Mom was constantly praying,luring god for 1kg ladoos (sweet) in exchange for my good marks ,sorry my bad for my 95% 

Finally the site responded,i scored 89% , i think that god didn’t liked the bargain !! I was happy because i really worked hard for this, and i got what i deserved but the world around me was in complete state of shock ,the ground beneath my mum dad’s shook !!! Dad gave me a disgusted look, mom was sad !! Well this is what i deserved for not getting into 90’s line !!! Relatives keep calling , adding fuel to my dad’s anger and to make my mom weep more and more !! My house was looking like someone has died and everyone was mourning for the loss !! My friends and teachers keep on congratulating me,but that means nothing to me now,                                                  i just wanted to see these two people happy !! But destiny has different plans !! My neighbours asked my dad to celebrate as their kid has scored whooping 89% but dad told them “satyam is really sad,he didn’t want to celebrate ”

I didn’t WANT TO???, does anyone really care in this house ,what i really wanted,??,NO  because no one ever asked ,what i really wanted !! 

•>I wanted to play cricket for my school team,which you didn’t let me join

•>I wanted to celebrate every festival with joy and without the guilt of wasting my “precious” time

 •>I wanted to go to the picnic with my classmates which i didn’t go due to a silly test

•>I just wanted to ask out my crush for an icecream date

•>I just wanted to live a life of a normal teenager

•>I didn’t wanted to join 2 coaching for a single subject 

•>I didn’t wanted my freinds to call me a ‘nerd

•>I didn’t wanted to lose my bestfreind because i couldn’t gave him time 

•>I just wanted to be happy,which you didn’t let me to

•>I just wanted that you people had appreciated my hardwork

•>I just wanted to listen “proud of you son” from you people instead of you are ashamed of me

I  lost my friends,my cricket team,my crush ,my self esteem ,my social life ,my happiness because of your obsession for some numbers !!!And what do you people get from this obsession, today neither you people are happy nor i am
I wish its some kind of story  ,where i can tell you people about my feelings

and you just realise your mistakes ,and with tears in your eyes you would say “i am proud of you son,i am sorry” 

But its real life and not a movie ,things don’t sort out in real world like that,If i can say my feelings to them,i will be labelled as spoiled and misbehaving child !!  I hate this feeling !!! So i did exactly what i am good at,i went to their room and said “sorry, for letting you down”

Next day, dad just entered my room and said “satyam its high time you should realise what harm you have done ,and to rectify this mistake you have one chance ,here’s the form of IIT coaching classes, fill it,.


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I am learning to write stories , An introvert's attempt to express

29 thoughts on “Short story- I wanted to

  1. Very relatable story Vani. Its been proved time and again the percentages and numbers doesnt always matter. But still the cycle continues. If only parents spend time to listen to their kids instead of hear.

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